Wrap up the year with a wonky slip stitch and a temperature drop
Man, I had such a great Christmas! To the point where I'm not sure what to say past that...I really understand how people get this sort of surge of energy afterwards and want to get going on trying new stuff and making positive changes for the new year. But you know what, I've already started before Christmas, didn't I? Now I'm lucky enough to have more tools to help me keep going.
The weather out here was actually kind of crazy. It was WAY warmer than it should have been, and it's been pretty warm like this throughout the week. A lot of people could do just fine with t-shirts when the sun was out and light jackets at night. That's actually a bit concerning in regards to climate change, I would assume. It was kinda funny to get any winter gear like hats and gloves this year because of how far off the usual winter weather had been feeling. Unfortunately, the temperature is going to drop INSANE low tonight down to below freezing! Awful day for people like me who get crazy headaches from this...
One of my favorite gifts, for sure, is a rose bouquet lego set from my husband. It's a lot of fun to put together, and it looks so impressive. I actually have a pretty big lego collection but I've wanted sets from this series for a while. I have tried to chill out on legos these past few years because it's hard to find places to display them where they don't sort of clash or look way too enticing to our cat. This being easy to display and look so nice really helps with that issue. People think I'm hiding all my cool legos because I'm embarrassed lol, but I just struggle to make display space and executive dysfunction grabs on situations like this for me pretty hard (I still have decor in storage I struggle to place, too...you think this would be fun!)
As for the next few days and into the new year, I'm excited to give new hobbies a try and revive my old ones. I'm doing them all judgement free, so even if I fall off on any of them, I'm not going to feel any guilt or take it out on myself anymore. I'm doing really well, I think I thrive best when I'm juggling multiple hobbies and not trying to put my whole self into just one. I'm weaving, very badly trying to crochet, and I'm finally drawing again with a new set of markers and sketchbook given to me. I've been having so much fun! Just having something to do with my hands, that I get to see myself create a thing really does give me joy. The more good experiences I have doing these things, the more I crave doing them. Blogging is no different, I just really enjoy getting to write about whatever is on my mind and process my thoughts. I have some other stuff I'm going to do more, also, that I know I love. When I create a rotation of things to do I can keep them all fresh. I was given a large puzzle book and word search book, both seem really fun, and of course I still keep up with my sudoku. Past that I've got a few better detail brushes for painting and I can't wait to progress further in that. I'm lucky to have been given a few things, mainly for my laptop, that will improve my general comfort when using it. I've got a wireless keyboard and a laptop stand! These things among others really help me, my neck and back, not hurt when I'm on the computer, so I hope this can make writing, blogging, and my personal web design stuff easier to do. What I would really love is to feel ready to start learning Java or pick up some sort of python project that really helps me better understand the language, but I think that's probably going to happen after some actual professional intervention for my ADHD. I do want to talk to someone about getting medication, or at the very least some adequate counseling for my daily life and accomplishing bigger things past just what I'm always able to engage in. I still struggle with food and my diet immensely and other general maintenance tasks can be so difficult I sometimes lose all energy to do anything else. I want to be able to ride these highs and lows naturally but I think it's about time I really admit that I can't just hope for the best during my low points and just adjust my life so that doing nothing is safe and passable. I don't think I have a choice, in a world like this that just isn't made for people like me, to do anything other than work against my natural inclinations with something that can adjust my physical state. I don't want to have health problems due to the bad diet and sporadic exercise routines that ADHD sticks me with. I don't want to feel like I'm barely hanging on half the month and I don't want to have health issues that arise from this awful sleep schedule. I am so scared I'll become the angry, impulsive, frustrated and unhappy person I was when I was on medication before, but I think it's been so long that I have to at least talk with someone. I know how easy it can be for me to forget the specific points I want to address during the consultation so I'm going to have to write these things down over the next couple weeks so I can make sure I don't just get caught up in the stimulation of talking and go over what really needs to be talked about. Judging by the length of this paragraph, I'm probably going to be told to pick journaling back up, which yeah, sure! But I'm also going to talk to them about how I want to start an exercise routine that eases the issues I have with carpal tunnel and my hands generally going numb when I get into just about every hobby on earth I have or what to have. I know it's a little unrelated, but the approach to actually sticking with the needed exercises is absolutely a part of knowing my brain.
Anyway, I hope you had a good holiday too. Maybe you're just glad it's all over, and I get that. Right now I've got some music transferring over to an mp3 player, and I'm going to outline in pen and color a drawing I've made in my new sketchbook. I don't have much of an objective for the sketchbook besides filling it with complete, colored pictures. I want to put these markers to use even if it's clunky because it's been over 10 years since I've dropped out of my college art program. I used to be pretty good, when I started I was kind of at the top of the class! But I'm no longer mourning the loss involved with all that, I'm just getting back to what I feel comfortable doing and getting back to being me. Maybe I'll include the finished image in a later post! Byebye!
