Motion City Soundtrack
I need to reorganize my website so that I can sperg out about Motion City Soundtrack. They're gonna be in town on the 16th, and the tickets are about 30 bucks each, and I REALLY want to go. I love them sooooooooo much. AAAAAggh. I always thought relating to music was corny and lame until I heard them. I guess I'm just sick of love songs and breakup songs that aren't trying to be anything other than manipulate the audience into feeling something. Damn, I really am an unpleasant cynic lol. I dunno, there's something about them that just feels like real people trying their best to make art they feel expresses themselves, and I can just tell it's out of love for the craft. Or maybe you put one of the 2 guys on earth I find hot in an album where he talks about his feelings and I crumble and fold just like any other bi female nlog lol. Just kidding it's probably because we both dealt with alcoholism. :3
Anyway, I need to allow for more room on my about page by linking every media type I list as what I like into a pop out that goes into more detail about my interests. I feel like that's what's going to be my next big project for the site. I honestly just want to have more pages to organize my website better anyway, because I really do need to cut back on how in your face everything can be at once. I need more polish and organization, but we all knew that. My hope is that maybe I'll get more in touch with my interests and I'll feel more inspiration to make some art of my own, even if it just ends up being fan content for mostly myself to enjoy.
Should I organize my posts a bit more here, too? Well, if I feel up to it. I'm sorta surfing the wayback machine and finding some old blogsites from people way back in the day that were more interested in blogging and talking about their favorite bands and it's been nostalgic and inspiring, the small text styles and what I might call "fun minimalist" web design from about when I was in middle school, by other teens who were just excited to talk about their week and check out the posts from people in their webring. I consider this stuff to be mainly the crowd that this sorta web material/sozai online at the time was for. People loved to have an online diary, and boy do I relate! I loved how it was this place where people could be honest and themselves because there was never the chance of monetizing the blog, and barely the chance to be that famous. I don't even know if fame looked that appealing to most bloggers back then, instead I think just being their own niche underground hangout where they could find other people who got them was probably more important. I could be wrong, and everyone wanted to be perez hilton or something. But I think the blogging space was much more free back then. I remember a bit of those days, and how I didn't want to be well-known online but I did want to be noticed, to have my own reputation. I wanted to be a character in the cast. I wanted people to care and see me for myself and accept that in full. I think, after all these years, that is what truly matters.
I just want to be myself for a living. Being myself is an addiction for me, and I struggle to put it down.